FFS

[catsidhe]

I'm going to see friends tonight, no matter that there'll be an amway/tupperware style sales pitch party thing on.

I'm going to see friends I don't see nearly often enough. I'm looking forward to it. Why in seven hells am I shaking?

Fuck off, adrenal system. I'm a grown-up. I'm looking forward to it.

I just need to stop shaking.





I can do this.

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[tangent_woman]

Keep breathing. There will be a corner. It will be okay. And even if it's uncomfortable, it will end. And it will be okay. Keep breathing.

[catsidhe]

*sigh*


Intellectually, I was looking forward to it. I went out there, and saw an Amway-style sales pitch, and was with friends I've known since I was 14, and the drive out to Belgrave was almost pleasant, and it was what I thought it would be.

The trouble was, my adrenal system didn't give a fuck what I thought, and was trying to put me into a full blown panic.

It is a very strange experience to be intellectually calm while one's body is trembling with incipient panic.

[tangent_woman]

What you describe is not unfamiliar to me. I keep breathing, and it works okay.

[tcpip]

The trouble was, my adrenal system didn't give a fuck what I thought, and was trying to put me into a full blown panic.

And yet we still find people who think this sort of thing is a myth. :(